Simply wanted to kill myself off this world at this moment of life!!! How do i got to explain it??? Okie!! First, I do not regret quitting my course and moving on to the next stage of my life..
Yes!! It's the whatever people called it as working life.. I'm prepared to step into that stage but then what really got me in such a mood is that... What am i going to do?? Yup, I don't really have a damn dream job now or so called interested in and wanted to step into that path and so what if i had?? It does not mean that the industry/company would want me... Yea yea yea and people will start to say.. You never try how do you know?? YA!! SO!! I don't have it.. lolx!!! What if i really got?? I don't think its possible because i know it's hard that's why i never say it out!! LOLX!!!

Ok.. Cut that dream job!! I just want to get a job and no matter what position/industry at least i get the experience of working life so called a long term and giving me benefits in future if i got to change another job... I don't want part time job or pay which is lower than 1.7k!! Maybe you guys will say that my expectation is SUPER HIGH but i think it's the economic rate now...
Super messy post!! Gosh..

Now what it's going on is.. I'm thinking am i suitable in the job i had applied and went for the interview??? I'M LOST!!! IT'S REALLY SHIT IT!!!
In the first place, I'm eager to get in that position i had applied and get the bloody work and get the pay.. LOLX!!! But as you think more.. things are getting more and more complicated!!! Company are offering me different position rather than the one you applied and FIP at RE said you are not suitable for that position.. ARGH!!! Then you will start to think am i suitable in the position they offering me?? Can i really cope it?? What if i can't?? How?? People will start to say again!!! Try it then you will know!! WTF!!! If i got to try every single thing then when i will settle down.. Don't you think it's SHIT!! Telling people is easy but then when it's your turn what you will do?? Same mood as me?? I think 100% it is... Haiz... The more you tell people the more different advice they will start to give and the more shit mood you would have!!! Because when all the information gathered together, it's totally a MESS!!! Some people will support you and some will give you that face like wtf you want to work as this?? =(

What to do now?? Why don't the heaven god or whoever just get me a good boss with a good pay and a good job!!! As time goes by, it's getting more and more irritating and you will found yourself standing in the middle of the desert without any helps...

Haiz!!!! Its really FML now!! Haas!!!

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